These past two days I have been confronted with physical weakness like never before. Chemo is no joke! I do not want to gloss over the difficult parts of this journey.
I never realized what a gift from God ENERGY is.
I’ve barely had the energy to lift my head in many moments, and simple things like going to the bathroom and eating breakfast make me have to go lie down again. This is difficult for a high-energy, on the go person like me!
I knew I would lack energy, but I had no idea to what extent. I could not even muster the strength to journal and hold my bible. This makes me very sad because prayer journalling is how I process – it’s how I commune with God as I read His Word.
BUT, I’m thankful because today, Sunday morning, although I’m not at church with my family, I was able to read God’s Word on my iPhone bible app. It’s easier to hold than my bible when weak and I can look with my head still on the pillow. I’m praying through the Psalms and it’s been such a blessing so far to read each familiar Psalm with a fresh set of eyes. When I can, I’d love to share some of my reflections with you.
I’m thankful because my sister came to visit me ALL the way from Houston, TX! She’s served me so well, making me cheese grits and going on a grocery store run.
I’m thankful because I was able to make it to my parent’s house tonight and eat dinner. My aunt and grandmother were visiting from Wilmington, NC and I always love time with them. I stayed on the couch most of the time because I’m just too weak to do much else.
I’m thankful because my children are the most nurturing, loving sweet things on this earth. They love to cuddle me, sing me songs, and I even got a back rub from Samuel this morning.
So many sweet friends remind me that I don’t always have to be “up”….I know this. I’m trying my best to see the many blessings that I am still enjoying that cancer will NOT steal from me! Believe me, there have been many rough moments this past weekend, but overall, I’m thankful.
I’m mostly thankful for promises like this: “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT)
His grace abounds,